Wow I didn't realize it has been over a week since I blogged.  I was reading my last entry about getting in touch with the nutrition clinic on post and I did hear back from them but they don't have a group meeting where I can go.  So for now I will just keep doing what I am doing at home.

This past Sunday I weighed and had lost 4 pounds and was so surprised at that.  I truly didn't think I had lost anything, in fact, I thought I had gained.  Boy was I surprised at the results.  Over this past week or so I have really gotten more active and not just sitting around.  I was so good at the beginning back in January and then I hit a low point where I gained 6 pounds in 2 weeks and I was really feeling sorry for myself.  I felt like such a loser.  But I picked myself up, wiped myself off and started all over again and it paid off...down 4 pounds.  I am now back down to 491 pounds and that is 11 pounds from where I started. 

As you know I bought the food saver thingy and made up some meals, portioned them out into individual bags and put them in the freezer.  This past week it has really paid off in making supper for myself.  All I had to do was put the main course in the microwave to heat up and while it was doing that I made a vegetable, salad or pasta to go with it.  Then when it came time to record my points it was SO MUCH EASIER.  I recommend getting a food saver to anyone who struggles with supper meals.  Make up some meals ahead of time and then on a night when you don't have time to cook you just have to reheat.

On Friday night I put the pork tenderloin in the crock pot with the BBQ sauce and it cooked all night so when we got up Saturday morning all I had to do was portion it out and freeze what we wouldn't eat right away.  That way we don't get tired of a particular food (from eating it 4 days in a row) and we can get more variety in our meals. 

I got a compliment from my husband on Friday.  He dropped me off to mail a package and when I was done I had to wait for him to come pick me up.  When he arrived he told me that I looked great.  I had what he meant and he said I looked skinner and I was standing up.  This just made my day.  For people who are fat like me standing and not leaning on sitting down is hard to do and standing straight is even harder.  I have really been working on standing, forcing myself to stand to do stuff.  It seems to be paying off.  This past week has just been wonderful.  I found myself doing more and being more active and not really thinking about it...I JUST DID IT.  My husband would say, do you realize you just did such and such and I went no.  Shocked us both.  So I am finding myself doing stuff that before I either wouldn't do or would struggle to do and now am just doing it.

I have taken on the job of gathering up the trash on Monday nights for Bill while he is at school and then all he has to do it put it out before going to bed.  Some may say, what's so hard about that, but there again I had been so used to just sitting and not doing anything that just that simple job was hard.  It can still be a struggle sometimes but I work through it and just tell myself that I AM GOING TO DO THIS NO MATTER WHAT.  That is my motto or goal....I AM GOING TO DO THIS NO MATTER WHAT.

I have 2 1/2 months before my mother-in-law gets here and we go sight seeing.  I still have a ways to go before I can do much walking with her but I am determined to get there.  Please continue to pray for me and my daily struggles.  If I can push through the daily routines then I will be successful in the long run.  Until later...K