It's Sunday and weigh in day.  Unfortunately this past week has not been nice to me and I gained 2 pounds.  I really thought it was gonna be more so I am happy with only 2 pounds.  I wish it had been in the other direction but I was not good at watching what I ate and not exercising.  It was just a bad week all in all.  But today was good and I am back on track.  Bill is off this week for spring break and he will help me. 

I made several meals to have during the week so I won't be struggling to fine something to eat or wanting to go out to eat.  We did go out Friday night but I had steak and a sweet potato.  I only ate half of my meal and the rest I ate the next day.  Cut up the steak in a chef's salad but didn't eat the sweet potato.  The salad was really good but the sweet potato didn't heat up well.

In June my mother-in-law is coming for a visit with my sister-in-law and nephew.  We will meet them in San Antonio at the train station and spend the night.  The next day we are gonna do some sight seeing around there.  When I think about sight seeing my stomach gets in a knot and I get sick.  It is so frightening to me all that walking and stuff.  I am really scared I am gonna let down everyone.  I want to just go and sit on a bench and let the rest of them go about their day but then I miss out on so much.  I tell everyone it's ok I am fine with this but my heart is sad.  I miss out on so much being this big.  It just doesn't feel like it is ever gonna end.  I am crying just thinking about it.  Guess I will change the subject and just tell myself it will be ok.

Bill started draining the pool today and getting it ready for the summer.  Can't wait until we can go swimming.  It's the only place on this planet that I can move around without hurting.  The water is so nice to fat people.  Can you imagine what a whale would feel like on dry land.  No wonder they are in the ocean.  I feel right at home in the water....lol

Tomorrow it's suppose to be the only day that is nice this whole week so we are gonna tackle the grass and also work on straightening up the garage.  Wish me luck.  I am gonna try and help Bill mow the grass and see how well I do.  I am looking forward to it.

I have had several people ask me how I can eat such and such cause it has so many calories.  You can eat anything you want BUT you have to stay within your points.  My friend Dora said to me tonight, you can have that BIG slice of cake and a small salad.  Now grant it you won't feel full if you do that but as long as you stay within your points you can.  I would not do THAT but I do allow myself to have sweets once in a while.  Except for last week when I didn't really watch what I ate I am trying to eat better.  The thing about weight watchers is they teach you how to eat from all the food groups.  It teachers you not to deprive yourself of your favorites but to figure out how to fit them in your week in SMALL portions.

Today we went grocery shopping and I bought the makings for a fruit salad.  Can't wait to make that tomorrow.  We love fruit salads.  Also bought myself some hard candy to suck on.  It helps when I am wanting something but don't really want the points.  5 jolly ranchers = 1 points and I can make those 5 jolly ranchers last a LONG time.  I also bought some M & M's and have already divided them into portion sizes in baggies.  Kept out just a few for this week and the rest we have put away for later.  Bill had a baggie tonight and he was surprised and satisfied with the amount, 1/4 cup = 1 serving.  Not bad.

Well next week is gonna be better.  Have lots on my plate to do and have a wonderful husband who will keep me on track.  Thanks for your support and love.  Later...K