Sorry I haven't posted for a few days.  I have something in my eye and I have been bothered with it making it hard to see the computer.  But...it is better today.  I weighed myself on Sunday and I lost a pound.  I am so HAPPY!!!  I went 2 weeks in a row with a weight loss.  It may only be a pound but I'll take it over gaining any day of the week. 

I wasn't able to help Bill with the doors over the weekend.  There was nothing for me to do.  So I just watched...lol  Spring break is just around the corner and we are gonna remodel our bathroom.  I KNOW he is gonna put me to work most likely painting.  I should make him do it since he is going to school to learn all that building trades stuff but I really want to help.  I have all this energy and want to use it to be productive.  Today I am washing 3 loads of laundry and I know for most people this is nothing new but like I have said before Bill usually does the laundry cause it USED to be so hard for me.  But I am finding myself able to do more and more.  The weight is coming off slower than I expected but I am gaining more energy than I expected.  I don't know if that is normal but I'll take it.

Bill had me add another exercise to my routine.  So now I walk from the office to the kitchen and back 3 times a day without sitting down.  The first day it was a killer but today.....not so bad.  I need to do more for my arms.  They aren't very strong.  It is amazing how weak your muscles become when you don't use them and how hard it is to get them back to strength. 

One thing I find very difficult to deal with is evening meals and I was talking to Bill about this and we came up with a plan.  I am gonna take Thursday & Friday and cook up 4 different meals (2 crock pots & 2 casseroles) and then when they cool off I am going to divide them individual portions marked with the point count.  I am so excited.  We even talked about buying a seal-a-mail machine so we can freeze them and then make it easier for having supper on the nights Bill is gone.  So wish me luck with this.  I have found 4 recipes from the cookbook my dad sent me for Valentine's day.  It already has the point values figured out if you follow the recipe exactly.  So this weekend I will go shopping for the ingredients and then make them up.  We both really hope this helps us in watching our portion sizes.

I will say I have lost the taste/desire for chocolate.  I used to crave chocolate after every meal but now I just don't want it.  Maybe it's all in my mind that I know if I start on chocolate I won't stop or maybe my taste buds have changed.  I just don't know.  But at least I don't want it anymore.

Well I'm off to fold the clothes.  Hope you all have a great day.  Life is good!!!

Well it's Friday and that means date night tonight.  Every Friday we have pizza and a movie.  Tonight I am making it from scratch and have figured out how to get it down from 17 points per slice to 8 points per slice.  I can't wait to try it and see if we like it.

I think I over did it yesterday.  I did 6 loads of laundry and cleaned the kitchen and my lower back is hurting so bad.  My lack of exercise and work has made it so I can overdo it easily but that's ok.  AT LEAST I DID IT and it felt good at the time.

I noticed today that my wedding rings are lose and I can twist them around easily.  All these little things that make me happy.

I have had so many people help me with finding recipes that I can make and be within my points.  I am working on a A/B/C/D week menu.  Basically, for week A we will have XXXXXXX, then for week B we will have ZZZZZZZZ, etc....  I am only going to do this for 2 weeks in advance and figure out my points at the beginning so I don't have to fuss with each time we eat.  I found a web sight that allows me to calculate how many servings I want to make for a meal.  So I put in 4 and we will have it 2 nights during the week.  I am so glad my husband doesn't mind eating the same thing twice in the same week.

Ever since I was a little girl my dad would always give his girls (me and my sister) a box of chocolates for Valentines.  This year I asked him not to and instead he sent me a cookbook that is for weight watchers and has the points already figured per serving.  I have found several recipes in there and have only looked through 1/3 of the book.  I can't wait to try some of them.  Thank you so much daddy.  I love you.  I'll let you know how the recipes go.

Well you all have a great weekend and I'll try and blog while I'm watching the Oscars on Sunday night.  Weigh in is Sunday morning.  Here's hoping for under 490.  Later.....

I am really struggling coming up with meals for supper.  During the week (Mon - Thurs) Bill isn't home for supper.  He goes to school and so I just pack him a dinner to take and eat there.  It is usually a sandwich, etc cause that is what he likes.  But for me I need to have something more than a sandwich for supper and I am having a hard time just cooking for one person.  I don't want to buy prepackaged meals cause they contain too many calories and sodium (which I have to watch) so does anyone have any suggestions on meals for one or maybe 2.  I could make something for 2 and eat it 2 days in a row.  This is a real struggle for me.  I want to just run to Burger King, or McDonalds (so easy) but that would blow my new way of eating so I don't. 

When Bill was deployed and it was just me at home I would stop and get fast food on the way home from work and eat that.  Then on the weekends I would just order chinese or pizza and eat that all weekend.  So you can see how bad my habits have become.  I have broken this habit but am still struggling trying to figure out dinner options.  Breakfast and lunch are easy for me.  Does anyone have any meals you can make for 1 or 2 persons that doesn't include peppers.  I can handle onion and mushrooms (just pick them out or leave them out all together) but neither of us like peppers. 

I am doing better, I think, on not ordering food for delivery or going out and getting something fast food.  To me that is such an accomplishment.  Fat people are lazy and I am the best at being lazy.  I would much rather order something then have to cook.  It is too much effort to cook but I really need to put that effort into cooking a meal.  Most of my recipes are for high fat, high calorie meals and I really need to get away from that.  I also live for gravies or sauces and need to stop that.  I wish there was a way to creates a weeks worth of supper meals and then I wouldn't have to put any thought into but once when i plan the meal.  Does anyone make this kind of meal plan?  If so, please share with me what and how you do it.  Thanks....Until later...have a great day.

Good morning everyone.  It's Tuesday and the long weekend has come and gone.  I was so excited to weigh on Sunday.  We bought a new scale, one that goes to 550 pounds (which I will NEVER need...lol) but one that is bigger and easier for me to read the numbers.  So when I stepped on the scale it registered me 4 pounds lighter.  YEAH!!!  I have now lost a total of 10 pounds since I started and I feel GREAT, WONDERFUL, FANTASTIC.

I was talking to my Aunt Patty on Sunday night and she was asking how it was going.  I told her I was doing great and would blog about it on Monday but as you can see, it's Tuesday and I didn't blog like I was gonna.  Yesterday I was sick all day and curled up on the couch with a blanket and the remote control.  But I feel so much better today, I have lots of energy and a list of things to get accomplished today.  So after I finish this blogging I'm off to start my day.  Sorry Aunt Patty for now blogging yesterday I hope you understand and thank you for asking me how I'm doing and being concerned. 

So far each time I weigh I go back and forth.  The first week, lost weight.  Next gained then lost, etc..  I lost this week and I really hope that next week I can register another loss in weigh and make that 2 weeks in a row.  I am so close to being under 490 (only 3 pounds to hit 489).  Can't wait for Sunday to get here. 

I have been eating the Smart Ones frozen meals by Weight Watchers but don't care for them so I think I am not gonna get those anymore and just learn to eat 'normal' food but in moderation.  On Saturday I made spaghetti with whole wheat pasta.  It was only 5 points per serving.  We tried it but didn't really care for the taste of it.  Then I figured out many points regular spaghetti pasta was and it too was only 5 points per serving so there again, I will just eat what I am used to but do it in MODERATION.  It was so funny, I actually had measuring cups and spoons on the table so that we could measure exactly how much we were eating.  Then it was easier to register our points.  We also are using light ranch dressing and both really like it and it's only half the points/calories.  It does take some adjusting and learning and sometimes it gets frustrating trying to figure out serving sizes and points but in the long wrong it will be worth it.

On Saturday I got so frustrated with trying to figure out my points for the serving size that I had taken that I just wanted to give up.  I was so tired of having to measure everything, record everything, etc but Bill said he wasn't gonna let me.  I'm so glad he won't let me give up, in the long run it will be worth it. 

I was thinking about making up some cheat sheet cards with points on them so when I eat a certain food all I have to do is look at the card and it will tell me how many points per serving.  Right now I am figuring points at every meal even if I've eaten it before cause I can't remember what it was from before.  Does anyone have any suggestions on how to do this? 

Well I am gonna go get busy for the day and take advantage of this energy I have.  Thank you all again for your love and support.  It's not easy and like I said I wanted to give up on Saturday but I am so thankful for a loving husband and family who won't let me.  Until later.....

It's Friday!!! YEAH.  I have so much energy today and have already gotten started on getting my chores done by 3:00 so when Bill comes home we can start date night.  I love Fridays and date night.  The last couple of days I have really been working on getting more exercise into my daily routine and it seems to be working out.  I have so much energy going into this long weekend.  We are gonna be doing some remodeling in our house this weekend and I am so looking forward to being able to help Bill.  In the past I would just sit and watch him but I really feel I can help him.  I am so excited about seeing what I can help him with.  I know for most this wouldn't be a problem but for me in the past I couldn't do anything but sit and watch.  So this weekend will be my first real challenge to see I can do.  GO ME!!! 

My mom says I am not blogging enough.  She wants to know more about what is going on.  You know when I first started a month ago I was so excited and so many new things were happening.  I was reaching so many new milestones and just had to share.  It seems like this past 10 days I haven't been as excited as I was.  I gained 4 pounds last week, which is NOT what I am suppose to be doing.  I ate out a lot and didn't do any physical activity.  I was determined to get back on track this week.  So here we are the 3rd day of this week and although I am back on track watching what I eat and staying within my points I haven't been doing anything physical except leg lifts at bedtime.  I have been sitting in the office for the past 3 days doing some work for Bill and then working on my ITunes music.  I am not getting up unless I get something to eat or use the bathroom.  So I have decided that everytime I use the bathroom I am gonna do some leg lifts before going back to what I was doing before.  That way at least I will be getting some more physical activity than I was.  I seem to be dizzy again this week.  I bought some beef jerky to eat for the protein but I don't know what else to eat besides eggs for protein.  I can't eat a lot of eggs because they are high in points and cholestrol.  I am already having problems with my cholestrol so I don't need to add to it.  Does anyone have any suggestions for protein and if I eat more of that will I not be as dizzy.

I was really hoping to be at least 15 pounds lighter by now but that didn't happen so it's a little depressing.  We are going on vacation later this summer for our granddaughters 1st birthday.  I would so love to be 50 pounds lighter and be able to go to the zoo with her.  That is my short term goal.  I will have to try really hard to get there. 

I bought some weight watchers snacks and although they only have 2 points per bar they don't taste very good so I don't think I will be doing that again.  We also bought this bag of mixed chocolates that were bite size, about the size of a tablespoon, thinking we would eat no more than 4 a day cause they are 1 point per candy piece.  Well that went out the door over the weekend when we were watching movies and 'pigging out' on them.  I just don't have the will power to say no if they are in the house so I won't be buying those anymore. 

I have really been struggling these past 10 days and need to find a way to uplift my spirits and get excited about losing weight again.  I wish I was feeling right now the way I was feeling that first week.  I think gaining those 4 pounds last week just pulled the rug out from underneath me and I need to get back up, dust myself off and start all over again.

I really am obssessed with food.  I think about it all the time.  I think about getting in the truck and going and buying a burger from McDonalds or ordering Chinese for lunch and telling myself it will be ok but then I don't.  But I think about it and wish I didn't.  I guess I am stronger in that way cause in the past I would have.  Now if I could just get over thinking about it.  I have stopped watching the food channel cause I would get so 'hungry' while it was on and eat.  I wasn't really hungry just bored and food filled that boredom.  When you aren't physical and able to get around you have a tendancy to sit and eat cause you get bored.  I used to put puzzles together but got rid of all of mine.  Doing puzzles would keep my hands busy and if my hands are busy I wouldn't eat. 

Well I am gonna go for the night.  Thanks for all your support and love and kind words.  I know I have so many people rooting for me.  I will try harder.  Nighters....

Wow I just realized I haven't blogged since Tuesday.  This past week has been horrible and I guess I just wanted to not have to face it.  I ate what I wasn't suppose to and I didn't exercise.  Those 2 factors combined I ended up gaining 4 pounds this week and now I'm back to 496.  I really can't afford the calories and points that you get when eat out and the little amount of exercise I do I need to continue it.  That is the only way I am gonna get this weight off.  There aren't any excuses and no one to blame but myself.  I was just lazy this week and wanted to do whatever I wanted to.  I didn't have strong will power but today is the beginning of a new week and no laziness here.  I will be successful this week.

I feel so drained tonight and just don't want to do anything.  Yesterday I wasn't feeling good so I rested all day until about 5pm and then I spent the next 5 hours cutting out valentine's stuff for a teacher at the school.  I did get a good nights sleep but spent ALL day cutting more stuff for the teacher.  It wasn't hard work, the Cricut did most of the work but for some reason I just feel drained tonight and am so ready for bed.  I did get up enough energy to do the dishes.  When you do the dishes by hand I wonder how many calories you burn...lol

I feel like I have been taking all these steps forward but tonight I feel like I have taken 2 steps back.  I ate Chinese for supper and when I added up my points I was shock to see it was more than I was allowed.  Fortunately I haven't used any of my 'weekly' points so I was able to use some of those.  I need to watch what I eat the rest of the week.  I just feel defeated tonight.  I could see me giving up so easy right now cause I've done it before but NOT this time.  I will see this through to the end.

I don't know how people can exercise every day.  My friend, Becca, works out every day and she has a 2 year old.  How she gets up the energy or time to do this is a wonder.  I have to force myself to get up and move around or do my leg lifts before going to bed.  It doesn't come easily.  I just want to sit there and be a vegetable.  That is my problem, I have veggied for to long and it got me to where I am now.  FAT! FAT! FAT!!!  I am having a pitty party tonight.  I need to get down on my knees and pray hard tonight that God gives me energy tomorrow to get up and move.  I don't want to continue like the way I was.  I want to get better, get skinny, get healthy.  It just hurts sometimes to even move and it's at those times I really need too push myself and work through it. 

I have a very dear friend who is also doing weight watchers and keeping a blog and she posted something yesterday that I thought was so good and I want to share it with you.  At church on Sunday she was listening to the preacher talk about 'Default Position'.  Like her, I too spent my whole life focusing on food.  But since she has joined weight watchers she has been praying day and night for God's strength and slowly food is no longer her focus on life.  God is delivering her from her addiction to food and what a joy she is feeling.  On Sunday the preacher asked what is your default position.  "When you are under pressure what is your default position?  Where do you want to go back to?  If it is anything other than a greater trust in God it limits your future.  Ask the Holy Spirit to help you rewrite the default position of your life.  It will change the potential of your life."  What wonderful words those are and I'm so glad my friend shared them on her blog.  I am going to start asking God to help me rewrite my default position so food is not my focus.  So I can focus on Him and His ways. 

Just writing this tonight has brought me to tears.  It is such a struggle to lose weight and I just feel like I have lost that battle.  I know it's only been 3 weeks and I can't give up.  Whether it's 3 weeks, 30 weeks or 300 weeks I am gonna fight the food battle the rest of my life with God's help.  As long as I give it to God He will help me.  LET GO, LET GOD!!!

Thank you for your love and support.  Please keep me in your prayers that God gives me strength to meet each day head on and to live for Him.

It's Sunday and that means weigh in day.  I was so nervous to step on the scale to see what I have done this week but so excited to see that I had dropped 2.8 pounds and now I am 492.  That is 10.2 pounds down from where I started on January 16th.  YEAH ME!!!

The first Sunday I weighed I had lost 9 pounds then the next Sunday I had gained back 2 pounds.  This week I lost again.  I was really good the first week at watching what I eat.  The 2nd week I thought, well I did so good the first week I can eat whatever I want and learned you can't when you step on that scale.  This past week I have really concentrated on watching what I eat and making better choices and it proved successful with a lost of 2.8 pounds.

We went to IHOP for brunch today.  It didn't take me long to determine I wasn't gonna blow my 10+ lb I had lost so far by eating something that would put it back on so I choice Eggs Benedict.  Had them cook the hash browns without any oil, butter or fat.  Put the hollandaise sauce on the side so I could determine how much I was going to use.  Instead of a stack of pancakes I had them make 5 silver dollar ones and hold all butter.  I didn't eat the pancakes until later in the day, instead ate the bowl of fruit that Bill had.  I was so happy with my choice and don't feel like I 'blew' my diet.  Oh I choose water instead of soda to save those points too.

Went to Walmart afterwards and bought some fresh fruit & smart ones meals by weight watchers.  This week I am gonna try to eat 1 meal with a vegetable and fruit for each dinner during the week.  I also bought light salad dressing so I will have salads for lunch using that.  I really hope that weigh in next Sunday will have me down under 490.

My mom told me that she would give me $100 when I lose my first 100 pounds to go towards buying new clothes.  Today I decided the first thing I was gonna buy was a swimming suit.  I can't fit into any swimming suit out there so when we swim in our pool I just wear a pair of shorts and t-shirts.  I am so looking forward to buying a swimming suit and going swimming at the YMCA this winter. Bill said he would get me a membership there so I can do water acrobics during the winter months.

I can't wait until our pool is up for this summer.  I plan on working out as much as possible.  Maybe I will drop a lot this summer.  Only time will time.

When we used to go to Walmart I wouldn't go in.  I would beg Bill to go get what we needed but today I choose to go shopping.  Instead of parking in the handicap by the front door I had Bill park 3 rows over and about 6 cars down cause I wanted the exercise of walking to the door.  I will get it wherever I can.  I walked around Walmart in the food section and then sat down while Bill did his shopping.  My knees start hurting so bad when I am walking around that I just have to sit and take a break.  I was still proud of how well I did and it made me feel good.  I am paying the price tonight cause my knees hurt but that's ok.  I still feel good overall.  I made good choices on food today and got some extra exercise.

Well tomorrow is another day and it will be a successful day.  Night everyone.

What a fabulous day it has been. I have been very good at eating all my points for the day throughout the day. Bill has made sure that I eat every couple of hours and I haven't been dizzy or light headed.

I had another accomplishment today. Bill needed help loading the old treadmill in the back of the truck and I was actual able to help him lift and slide it in. It was very heavy too. It made me feel so good to help him. In the past I would have to tell him I couldn't.

I made lasagna today too. I made up the recipe on the weight watchers program for recipe builder and when I did that it was gonna be 27 points per serving. When I actually made it and measured how much I used of each item and then adjusted it in the recipe I was able to drop it from 27 points to 17 points per serving. I used a lot less mozerella cheese & ricotta cheese then I would have in the past and it tasted so good. Bill even commented on how good it was. It just amazes how good foods taste when you don't overload them with too much of 1 item.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am excited to see how I did. I ordered a food scale from weight watchers along with some of their dessert bars and they will get here next Tuesday. I am excited to start weighing my food. Life is so great why didn't I start this sooner.

Night everyone.

Well here it is the weekend and the weekends are always the hardest for me.  It's when we are out and about and in the past we would go to some fast food place and grab a burger, fries, etc.  We also get ice cream from Chik-Fil-A during the week and last Saturday Bill and I agreed we would go all week without getting any and we did.  Tonight was date night so we went to dinner and afterwards got ice cream and came home.  That will be the only eating out we do this weekend.  I had a pepperoni flatbread pizza made out of whole wheat for the crust.  It was 1 serving and had 25 points to it.  It was really good and I think I will do that again.  I am gonna look for a flatbread crust recipe.  I don't think it has yeast it because it is like it is called, flat.  I will try this at home next time I make pizza.  Bill also got a flatbread pizza but his had steak and mushrooms on it with a blue cheese sauce.  I'm sure that sauce was more points.  He enjoyed the flatbread too.  We did have an appetizer of chips and queso but my part was only 10 points so my supper was pretty good and I had the points to be able to enjoy it.

Tomorrow I am gonna make lasagna so we have it to eat over the weekend. I will also make a vegetable to go with it so we don't fill up on just the lasagna, which is so tempting.  Sunday is suppose to be a soup potluck after church but we are gonna skip it since we can't determine how many points or what size serving the soups will have.

The past couple of days I have been very dizzy and today it was really bad.  In fact, I got lighted headed and dropped a drinking glass on the kitchen floor.  Had to leave it for Bill to clean up cause when I bent down I got light headed.  I am doing better tonight but I have a headache now.  I thought I ate good today.  I had 2 packets of quaker maple oatmeal with a 1/3 cup of skim milk for breakfast.  Then for lunch I had a big salad.  Then in the afternoon I got sick to my stomach and I think I 'got rid of' everything I ate today.  By supper time I was really hungry, dizzy and had a bad headache.  The dizziness went away as soon as I ate but the headache is still here and I have taken medicine to try and get rid of it.  No go so hoping when I go to bed it will get better.

There is also a strong cold front coming in so that may be affecting how I feel, etc.  I notice my joints ached today which usually happens when the weather changes.  Should be past us by noon or so on Saturday and hopefully I will start feeling better.  Weigh in comes on Sunday and I am excited to see how I have done.  I have stepped on the scale a couple times in the middle of the week just to see what I have done and so far I have gone down.  Yeah me!!!  Hope I get to register a weight loss come Sunday.

We are going grocery shopping this weekend and I can't wait to get low fat salad dressing and low fat mayo and try them.  The difference in calories and points is about 1/2. 

Well have a great weekend all. 

I am so very thankful that I can call my folks and just talk and talk to them and tell them about what is going on in my weight loss. They enjoy hearing it and I enjoy talking about it. I was able to reach another achievement today. I carried the laundry basket from the bedroom to the garage where the laundry is. I haven't done this in a very long time. Usually I get Bill to carry it out there and then he does the laundry and all I do is fold it. He washes and dries and then dumps it on the bed and I fold. Made me feel good to wash the laundry today. Who would have thought do laundry is something to rejoice about.

I was talking to my folks about what life would be like when I get down to 400 pounds. I wonder how my attitude will be. I can't wait to be under 480. I haven't seen that in years. I am only 12 pounds from that. When I left Korea in 2001 I weighed 350 pounds. I remember that number cause I weighed myself on one of the scales with the sliding weight and it maxed out at 350. So in 11 1/2 years i have gained 150 pounds. Wow. My goal for this year is to be down to 400 by Christmas. All I want for Christmas is new, smaller size clothes.

I have been doing some research on the difference between regular salad dressing, regular mayo and the light version of both of those. Quite a difference. Gonna buy some of the light stuff this weekend and give it a try.

I feel that the leg lifts and arm weights I am doing have really been helping me a lot. I get around with much more ease. I have noticed that I don't take nearly as much Motrin as I was and absolutely no Tylenol since I started. I only have taken a couple of pain pills and that was cause of my back hurting after last weekend. So I am happy about cutting my pain meds in half or even more. Life is good.

So it's Wednesday morning and I was feeling a little down because I had gained weight at my last weigh in so I stepped on the scale today to see how I was doing and although it's not official I am down again to 492.4.  This is actually less than what I weighed on my first official weigh in on the 22nd.  At that weigh in I was 492.6.  Hey I'll take that extra .2 pounds anyday.  My official weigh in will be Sunday so maybe I can break 490.  Wouldn't that be awesome. 

I am trying to find a good recipe for whole wheat pizza crust.  I love pizza but the white crust has a lot of points to it.  I read an article on WW that I should eat more whole wheat when having breads or pasta.  We bought some whole wheat pasta for spaghetti and we will have it Friday night.  Don't know how it will taste but we are excited to try. 

Someone asked me why I don't have that weight loss surgery that is being offered out there and I had to tell them I was too heavy for it.  Can you believe it.  One can be too heavy to have weight loss surgery.  I would have never believed it if I hadn't heard it first hand.  Talk about an eye opener. 

Well I am gonna go for now.  I found a recipe on WW for chicken pot pie that is only 8 points per serving so I am gonna make that and have a salad with it.