So it's been a month since I blogged.  I stopped cause I didn't think anyway was reading them except my mom and I talk with her everyday.  So I am sorry to those of you who do read that I stopped.  I will keep it up cause I know that you are interested in my progress.

I have noticed that even though I haven't lost a 'ton' of weight that it is getting easier to walk and stand.  The last couple of weekends we have gone to the px, commissary, etc and shopped.  I surprised myself and my husband in how well I was getting around.  I wasn't out of breath nearly like I had been.  You know 4 months ago I wouldn't haven't been able to do what I have done.  It really makes me feel good.  Now don't get me wrong, I still have bad days but they are few and farther between.

As you know Bill has been doing most of the chores now for several years.  About the only thing was doing is the dishes and I would have to sit to do those.  Now I can do the laundry and that includes taking the basket from the bedroom to the garage and back after all the laundry is washed.  It really makes me feel so good to be able to do this. 

Yesterday we bought a new vacuum cleaner and of course we had to try it out last night.  Bill said you want me to vacuum and I said no, I want to give it a try.  I was like a kid at Christmas playing with there new toys.  I couldn't believe I was standing and running a vacuum.  Bill was grinning from ear to ear and after it was done I just had to call my kids and mom and tell them what I had done.

You are probably saying, why would you get so excited about doing this.  Well when you get as big as I am you get to a point where you physically can't do anything.  I remember watching this show several years ago and it featured this man who weighed over 1,000 pounds.  He took up the WHOLE bed, side to side, top to bottom.  He couldn't get up to use the bathroom, he would just go and then his wife or dad would clean him up.  They would bring him a BUCKET full of chicken and all the fixings and that would be his meal.  He couldn't even sit up to eat it, had to lay on his side.  He had bed sores from laying all the time.  When I watched that show I thought to myself, why would anyone do that to themselves.  How can you let yourself get that fat and that dependent on others for everything.  As I thought back on that show I realized I was doing excactly what he was doing.  I would ask people to bring me food, I would let them do the chores so I didn't have to.  I was turning out like him (except for the bathroom thing).  I was to a point in my life where getting up was difficult and I would rather just sit and ask people to get me what I wanted.  Now if I ask my husband to go get me something he tells me to get off my butt and get it myself and 9 times out of 10 I won't go get it cause I don't want to put the effort out.   At first I was so angry with him for doing this.  It made me so mad but now I know he is doing it for me and I love him for that. 

It's been 2 weeks now since I have had to take any pain meds because of the pain in my back and knees.  I didn't even realize it until yesterday that I hadn't taken any.  I also hardly take tylenol and motrin too.  You have to understand for me this is a big deal.  I was taking pain meds 3 to 4 times a day and in between those taking the other.  Now not to take any is wonderful.  My lower back hardly has any pain and my knees don't hurt.  When we would go grocery shopping I could hardly bend my knees and pull myself into the truck after we were done.  Now it's no effort at all.

Next month we are going to TN to visit and will be taking Addie to the zoo.  I am scared but excited at the same time.  All that walking makes me nervous but on the other hand I am excited to see how well I can do.  I know it will be tough but I NEED to do this to prove to myself that I have gotten over another hurdle.  I don't want to miss out of Addie's life. 

Thank you for your love and support and words of encouragement.  Please keep them coming and please keep me in your prayers.  When I have lost 30 pounds I get to go back to the doctor and reevaluate my meds that I take and hopefully we can start weening me down off the dosage and eventually off of them.

Today we are going to Fredricksburg, TN with Bill's dad.  It's gonna be HOT and it will be an effort but I am looking forward to seeing how well I do.  Until later......K